Tuesday, July 14, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY'S installment on The Heart of Antinous is JOY.

We all know joy. It comes in many forms. It could be around friends or family. It could be visiting a particular place. A cool breeze blowing on your skin, the joy that a pet or being around animals brings or maybe just being alone.

First Antinous was human a real person. He would have experienced all of these at one time or another. These are all outward experiences that bring joy.

What of the Joy of the Heart?

What is it about Antinous that brings you joy? Is it his beauty or might it be the love story of he and Hadrian?

What do you think brings joy to Antinous' heart now?

I believe it is us. Those who love him.

After his cult was destroyed by Christians those that love and believe in Antinous were a small lot. Not until this century did his Cultus return.

Antinous saw the love that a certain young man had for him, so Antinous impressed upon the heart of this young man (Antonius Subia above) in El Paso Texas.

And because of that interaction and Antinous appearing to this young man that we are so fortunate to have what we do today. A new Cultus, a religion to worship Antinous. 

This religion now spreads over the entire globe. This is what brings JOY to the Heart of Antinous. 

So, when you look into the mirror and those eyes looking back at you there is joy for those eyes looking back are the eyes of Antinous through Homotheosis. 


Monday, July 13, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

THE Heart of Antinous as GOD. What do you see in the heart of Antinous as God? I am sure many volumes could be written on this very subject. I want you sometime to just sit down and meditate on this. I do want to mention one thing to start off. As God, I see compassion. The very FIRST MIRACLE that Antinous performed as God was to send a flood to the Nile region of Egypt. That area had experienced a drought for several years. 

As God it is pointed out on the Antinous Obelisk that “He hears the prayers of all those who call out to Him”. The link below is from Antinous The Gay God blog. It is a testimony about Lord Maluk and how Antinous answered his prayer. LORD MALUK is a Saint of Antinous he joined Antinous in August 2012. 

Another example shared by a BROTHER IN BRAZIL.

Here are just a few examples of how Antinous answers prayers. 

"In ancient times, Antinous was known as a miracle worker. His worshipers prayed to him for MIRACLES oracles, visions and answers to problems in their daily lives."

The Heart of Antinous as GOD is many things but the main thing, I personally believe is that The Heart of Antinous as God is HOMOTHEOSIS "Gay-Man-God-Becoming-the-Same-As-Gay-Man-God."

"Homotheosis is the sacrament of becoming one with Antinous, of not only loving, worshipping and serving His memory, but of opening the petals of our flaming soul, of skin of human body in which we are encased, to the living spirit of Antinous. In order to partake of His divine presence, one must become the same as Antinous, homogenous, consubstantial, and coeternal...in as much as one is able. Even a small trace of Homotheosis is a miraculous and sacred blessing to have within the soul.” 
Antonius Subia

I think it is best to sum this up with two quotes. One from Antonius Subia "our belief that Antinous consciousness can change our awareness of the world, and of our inner selves, thereby creating a spirit of bliss and harmony within and without.’
And Hernestus who says “…relating that Antinous resides in Sep Tepy, ‘‘the moment/location of Creation’’ envisioned by the Ancient Egyptians, which he equates with gnosis. According to Hernestus, in this realm ‘‘there are no limits, you are one with the Creator, you are Antinous, you are Homotheosis, Gay-Man-Godliness-Being-the-Same."

The Heart of Antinous as God resides in you and you in HIM. 


Sunday, July 12, 2020


THE Lost Tomb of Antinous and the Lost Tomb of Alexander the Great capture the imaginations of archaeologists everywhere ... but imagine stumbling onto the Lost Tomb of Cleopatra?

One long-held theory is that her tomb could be hidden in a labyrinth beneath a Roman era fort in the desert west of Alexandria called Taposiris Magna.

Now two mummies of high-status individuals who lived at the time of Cleopatra have been uncovered at Taposiris Magna, a discovery that it is being described as "sensational" because it shows the importance of a necropolis that is being linked to her by the latest finds, according to The Guardian.

Although the burial chamber had been undisturbed for 2,000 years, the mummies are in a poor state of preservation because water had seeped through.

But crucial evidence reveals they were originally completely covered with gold leaf, a luxury afforded only to those from the top tiers of society, The Guardian reported. Perhaps these two individuals had interacted with Cleopatra herself, archaeologists suggest.

The opening of the first-ever intact tomb found at Taposiris Magna was witnessed by cameras for a new television documentary, The Hunt for Cleopatra's Tomb.

It is presented by Dr Glenn Godenho, a senior lecturer in Egyptology at Liverpool University, who described the discovery as phenomenal, The Guardian reported.

"Although now covered in dust from 2,000 years underground, at the time these mummies would have been spectacular. To be covered in gold leaf shows they … would have been … important members of society," he said.

The mummies have been X-rayed, establishing that they are male and female. One suggestion is they were priests who played a key role in maintaining the pharaohs' power. One bears an image of a scarab, symbolizing rebirth, painted in gold leaf, The Guardian reported.

Cleopatra was the last of a ruthless dynasty that ruled the Ptolemaic kingdom in Egypt for almost three centuries. Yet not a single Ptolemaic pharaoh's tomb has been found.

Excavations at Taposiris Magna are headed by Dr Kathleen Martínez, who, after working there for over 14 years, is more convinced than ever Cleopatra’s tomb will be found there. Only a tiny percentage of the vast site has been explored, The Guardian reported.

In the show, cameras film her as the burial chamber with two mummies is opened up for the first time. After an initial limestone slab is removed with a chisel and hammer, she peers through a small hole, exclaiming: "Oh my god, there are two mummies … See this wonder."

Her previous discoveries include a headless statue of a pharaoh, believed to be King Ptolemy IV, Cleopatra's ancestor, and a foundation plate with an inscription showing that the temple was dedicated to the goddess Isis. Cleopatra saw herself as the “human incarnation of Isis," Martínez said.

The location is of great interest to those of us who love Antinous because it is very likely that Hadrian and Antinous visited this temple site in August of the year 130 AD ... the final summer of the brief life of Antinous.

As we know, the imperial entourage was visiting Alexandria in the summer of the year 130, and we know that Hadrian and Antinous hunted and killed a man-eating lion which had been terrorizing the countryside. 

It was described as a "Libyan" lion, "Libya" being the term used in those days for everything west of Alexandria.

So it is highly possible (even likely) that the imperial hunting party passed by the temple at Taposiris Magna, which is less than 45 kms (30 miles) west of Alexandria. 

In the year 130 it was a vast complex of temples that included a Roman fortress. The name Taposiris comes from the legend that one of the relics of Osiris was enshrined there.

This is a very noteworthy site because it is the location of the only wholly Greek style temple (with columns) ever known to have been built in Egypt. 

And it is also a temple which was converted into a military fortress by the Romans.

In addition, it is the location of a unique stone tower overlooking the sea which is believed to have been a miniature replica of the Great Lighthouse at nearby Alexandria.

Only shattered walls and foundations are left to indicate the size of Taposiris Magna.

It is entirely conceivable that Cleopatra and Marcus Antonius, cornered by Octavian's advancing forces, might have sought refuge at this fortified temple complex with its tower suitable for use as an observation post.

It is also entirely possible that Cleopatra and Marc Antony were buried here.


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY we are looking at part two on the Heart of Antinous as a SON.

9. Keep a sense of humor.

Laughter can always be a lifesaver — both to help you handle the stress of dealing with sometimes crotchety individuals and to help you bond. If you can laugh together with your parents, you’re doing okay.
I would imagine that Antinous and Hadrian had a many good laughs together. Imagine Hadrian watching Antinous perform some task and can’t just get it right Hadrian would have been ticked just watching. 
So, we will stop here for today. I hope I have given you some things to think about. Tomorrow we will be part two. 
10. Attend family gatherings and engage.

Of course, it was probably an obligation that Antinous attend that many functions with Hadrian. I don’t think here that Antinous was glued to Hadrian’s side that Antinous would be able to hold his own in conversation. 
11. Learn to make your own decisions.
Hadrian would have given Antinous some lead way in making decisions that affected his education, and training.

12. Be grateful.
Antinous would have known the position he was placed in was like no other. I am sure he thanked his Gods for all the time. And not only his Gods but the Emperor as well.

13. Be kind.
 There is strength in being gentle. Hadrian would have witness this with Antinous. Whether it was with animals or people. 
14. Give.

I believe that Antinous had the heart of a giver. The greatest gift Antinous gave was his life for Hadrian.
A selfish child will not win the respect of their parents; most people secretly hate those who are selfish or self-centered. Be a giving son — you should help, you should support, and you should try to help others succeed and achieve, but you should also expect respect in return.
15. Be cheerful.

I am sure that many times Antinous had to cheer Hadrian up due to the burden of running an empire. Antinous would have known the signs, looks, attitudes that Hadrian was displaying knowing the right time to cheer up the Emperor. 
16. Do not judge.

Hadrian would have made some major decisions that only he knows why he had to make them. Antinous was in a position not to judge Hadrian. 
Learn to love your parents ... and everyone else ... without judging them. I understand that everyone has their own perspectives on life based what they’ve learned, who they are and what they think the world is all about. So instead of thinking that you are smarter, better, wiser and more perfect than your parents, just love them without judgment.
17. Be a man of your word.

Antinous would have been a man of his word. 
Men who lie, exaggerate, cheat, steal or frequently go back on what they’ve promised, are not the type of guys who are respected by others. The most respected men are those who say what they mean instead of exaggerating, lying or pretending to like someone or something.  Respected men promise what they can deliver, and they then stick to that no matter what. As a man, the more you stick by what you promise, the more respected you will be.
18. Be the son that will make your parents proud.

The more of a man that you become, the more people will naturally begin to look up to you. You will be someone that people can lean on, a pillar of strength in this world. You will be someone who can be relied on to be yourself, to say what you really feel and mean and do what is right. Your parents will love you for this.


Saturday, July 11, 2020


ON JULY 11th each year, the Religion of Antinous takes a moment to ponder the esoteric reflections in the Well of Castalia at Delphi — where Antinous took a sacred bath, and where he was initiated into the Delphi Mystery Teachings.

It is also where one of the most mysterious and inspiring statues of Antinous was found.

The Well of Castalia is a fresh-water spring that flows from Mount Parnassus at Dephi, the sanctuary of Apollo. 

The Castalian Spring is located about 500 yards/meters from the Apollo Sanctuary itself. Busloads of tourists are whisked through the ruins of Delphi, but few ever stray away from their groups to wander off over to the spring site, which makes it an even more secluded and magical and mysterious place. 

It really is like stepping into the scene pictured here — Tarot Trump XVII "The Star" — the trump card which was inspired by the Well of Castalia

The spring was created when Pegasus, the winged horse, struck his hoof against a rock at the base of Mount Parnassus and water gushed forth, creating a wellspring of divine inspiration for the gods of Olympus. 

The name Castalia is derived from a Nymph named Castalia, a daughter of the river Achelous, who, when pursued by Apollo, threw herself in the spring that took her name. It was the most holy spring at Delphi and was said to be the place where Apollo and the Muses bathed. 

Pilgrims washed in the sacred water before visiting the Pythoness at the Delphic Oracle. According to Euripides, washing one's hair was sufficient for the average visitor, but persons who had transgressed more seriously against the Gods (he mentions habitual murderers as an example) had to strip off and wash themselves completely in the purifying waters.

The ancients believed the name Pegasus came from an even more ancient word meaning "wellspring of magical inspiration" and it was said that Pegasus was drinking from the Castalian Pool when Bellerophontes (or in later versions Perseus) sneaked up on him to harness Pegasus to do battle against fearful monsters.

In the Delphic Mystery Teachings,  the initiates were called upon to harness the magical inspiration of Pegasus for their own quest against the inner-demons of darkness towards spiritual enlightenment.

It was also said that the water of Castalia possessed the gift of prophecy, and any man who drank there would derive prophetic vision. Castalia is also a metaphor for the Well of Knowledge, and was said to be the fountain from which wisdom and learning poured from the heart of Apollo.

We know that Hadrian and Antinous visited this spot and it seems certain that Antinous purified himself in these waters — or at least washed his luxuriant hair.

An exquisite statue of Antinous was discovered at Delphi. The forearms had been broken off, but the ancient priests had lovingly buried the statue standing upright — which was the way it was found in the 19th Century, incredibly intact except for the missing forearms.

Alas, Antinous would drown in the similarly magical waters of the River Nile only a few scant months after visiting Delphi, during what we call the imperial "Three-Year Peregrination" — the wondrous and fateful final three-year Eastern Empire travels of Hadrian and Antinous. 

Flamen Antinoalis Antonius Subia explains why this special day, July 11th, is venerated by us Antinoians:

"We venerate the wisdom-gushing Well of Castalia on this day, half a year distant from the Well of Juturna, and bathe in preparation for the transition of the Peregrination year. We pray to Castalia to sweeten our tongue, as Antinous once bathed there, exposing the pure beauty of his flesh to the cold, fresh-gushing pool that imparts inspiration of the mind. In reverence of the wisdom and poetic elegance  of Antinous, we bathe in our own Fountains of Castalia."

The imagery of this purifying plunge into the magically inspiring waters of the Castalian Well has been used throughout history — even adorning the walls of early Christian churches, as seen in the mosaic (above) found in Libya. 

The imagery lives vibrantly in the XVIIth Greater Trump in the Tarot as The Star.

Open your Mind and your Heart to the Mystery Teachings of Delphi. Permit yourself to be carried aloft upon the magical wings of Pegasus, whose name means "wellspring of magical inspiration". Become one with Antinous through the wonder of HOMOTHEOSIS and allow yourself to conquer your demons and to soar to glory amongst the stars.

Friday, July 10, 2020


ON JULY 10th the Religion of Antinous commemorates the Apotheosis of Hadrian. After a prolonged illness, at Baiae, on the Bay of Naples, Hadrian died on July 10, 138. 

His ashes were placed in the mausoleum on the bank of the Tibur that is now called Castel Sant'Angelo.

After the death of the gentle Antinous, Hadrian became embittered and mistrustful, capricious and cruel. 

When Hadrian died, the Senate wished to condemn his memory for atrocities against them during his final years. 

But his successor, Antoninus Pius, persuaded them to declare Hadrian a God. 

A temple was built for him known as the Hadrianeum on the Campus Marius, the remains of which are now part of the Roman Stock Exchange.

Flamen Antinoalis Antonius Subia explains:

"Hadrian the God is venerated as the manifestation of Jupiter Optimus Maximus on Earth, the ruler and guiding force behind the Antonine Dynasty, the most sacred family of emperors, whose reign is the Golden Age of Rome, because of the peace and prosperity that it maintained, which was the result of the wisdom of Hadrian's far-sighted and divine plan stretching out over the world. We worship and adore Hadrian the God, Savior of the Cosmos."

Thursday, July 9, 2020


ON JULY 8th-9th we commemorate the Ascension and Consecration of Hadrian — when he became master of the world after years of worrying and waiting. Hadrian was declared Emperor by the Legions when Trajan died suddenly while campaigning in Parthia on August 8th, 117 ... and nearly a year later, on July 9th, 118 AD, he formally became Emperor of Rome. 

In this illustration, you see Hadrian entering the Roman Forum at the height of his power. Standing behind him in the chariot is Antinous saying: "Respice post te! Hominem te esse memento! Memento mori!": "Look behind you! Remember that you are a man! Remember that you'll die!"

On this day in 117 AD, however, Hadrian truly had been in fear of death. Hadrian had been on tenterhooks for years wondering whether Trajan would formally adopt him as his heir. 

If Trajan died without the issue of succession being settled, it could result in civil war — or at least in the assassination of Hadrian by some other ambitious man.

It is said that the Divine Empress Plotina forged the will of her husband and gave the throne to Hadrian, who had been her protégé and friend for years.

After assuming power, Hadrian first settled the conflict with the Persian King, signing a peace treaty that was to last through the whole of his reign. As Trajan's military representative in the provinces, he had seen how the empire was beginning to over-reach its resources. So he set about consolidating things in the East, lest his Empire become embroiled in the sort of chronic blood-letting that modern superpowers now seek to extricate themselves from in that same region.

It is also said that he wanted to let the political dust settle back in Rome before returning to a city where his critics were waiting. Many thought him unfit. Hadrian was Hispanic — literally so. He was born in the province of Hispania and spoke Latin with a provincial "Hispanic accent" which was the cause of much derision by high-born Patricians when he was sent to Rome as a boy to be educated. He never liked Rome and, throughout his reign, spent as little time there as possible.

Settling other matters in the East, Hadrian waited a full year before  returning to Rome, and on July 9th, 118, he entered the Holy City and was formally and ritually installed as Emperor by the Senate. He was then consecrated as Pontifex Maximus, highest priest of the Roman Religion, and head of all foreign cults.

He inherited from the warrior-king Trajan the largest empire that the western world had ever known — Rome at her greatest size and strength — and he wisely chose not to continue to expand the frontiers, but to turn instead to the development of the interior.

He visited every province, traveling more than any other emperor before or after, dedicating his power to art, literature, legal reform and the promotion of peace, prosperity, and the united religious consciousness of Roman citizenship after his beloved Athenian model.

Flamen Antinoalis Antonius Subia says the following about this Sacred Day in our Liturgical Calendar:

"On this day, Imperator Caesar Traianus Hadrianus Augustus was to assume responsibility as the spiritual leader of the Empire, Father of the Country with a vigor unparalleled by his predecessors, and was to be one of the foremost builders of cities, temples, and public structures world-wide. For his love of Antinous and the extraordinary gesture of deifying our god, we worship and venerate Hadrian as the founder of our faith and as our immortal father, the lover of Antinous."

Wednesday, July 8, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY is the eighth installment on the Heart of Antinous. It will be broken down into two parts. 

Today we want to talk a little on The Heart of Antinous as a Son. Little is known of the origins of Antinous except that he was from the Bithynian city of Claudiopolis modern-day Bolu, Turkey.

In many ways I am sure Antinous possessed all these 18 traits. I see Antinous far more matured for his age. 18 traits one for each year that Antinous lived.  Here are the first 9. 

18 ways to be a better man … by being a good son:

1. Cherish the time you have with your parents.
The time you have with your parents is short and precious, so make the most of it. Spend as much time as you can with them. Make it quality, loving time — don’t let your mind drift away.
Thought far from home and his family. Antinous surely valued the time he spent with Hadrian. The quiet times when no one was around to the thrill of hunting or attending major functions Hadrian had to attend as Emperor. 
2. Talk to your parents.

Whether you are close to your parents or not, keeping them informed about your hopes and fears and how they can support you is imperative.  Don’t limit your conversations strictly to family memories, or gossip about family members, or your personal life. There’s a whole wide world out there — why not try talking about it.

Antinous and Hadrian spent many hours just talking. Hadrian wanted to hear what his young companion had to say and encouraged him to speak his mind. Like any young man Antinous had dreams, hopes and fears. 

3. Bond with your parents.

Find things that you have in common with your parents.  Just spending ‘quality time’ will mean more than you know.
Probably the thing that bonded Hadrian and Antinous more than anything was hunting. Hadrian loved the thrill of hunting even from as a young man, he was criticized for hunting too much. Not only hunting was a bond between Hadrian and Antinous but the pursuit of knowledge and the mysteries they both were initiated into. 

4. Listen to your parents.

If you listen to them and treat them with the respect they deserve, they will listen to you and treat you with respect that you desire. This gesture of respect is something that they will appreciate.
Even though teenagers can be stubborn and hardheaded Antinous I am sure listen to Hadrian and the sound advise he gave. 

5. Trust your parents.

You may not always like what your parents have to say or feel like they understand you, but they care for you and will usually do and say what they feel is in your best interest.
I am sure that Antinous learned lessons sometimes the hard way and Hadrian let him fail at times. Antinous trusted that if anything went wrong while chasing the Libyan lion that Hadrian would be there for him. 

6. Be loyal.

Always be true to your family and friends.
Antinous was fully committed to Hadrian and was loyal. Many in the Imperial Court would have tried to influence Antinous for their own gain but Antinous remained loyal to Hadrian.

7. Be helpful.

Learn to serve other people without expecting payment or reward.
Antinous would have been one to help where needed. The concern he must have felt for Hadrian when illness struck. 

8. Be courteous.

Be polite to everyone regardless of their age or position. Using good manners makes it easier for people to get along.
Being part of the Imperial Court Antinous had to be courteous to all kinds of people and I am sure even to the ones that he didn’t care for.  Everyone would be watching Antinous to see how he would act or react. Any misstep would have brought disfavor not only upon him but to Hadrian as well. 

9. Keep a sense of humor.

Laughter can always be a lifesaver ... both to help you handle the stress of dealing with sometimes crotchety individuals and to help you bond. If you can laugh together with your parents, you’re doing okay.
I would imagine that Antinous and Hadrian had a many good laughs together. Imagine Hadrian watching Antinous perform some task and can’t just get it right Hadrian would have been ticked just watching. 

So, we will stop here for today. I hope I have given you some things to think about. Tomorrow we will be part two. 


Tuesday, July 7, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY'S installment on The Heart of Antinous is Excitement.  

There are many synonyms that can be associated with excitement. Many times, throughout his life Antinous would have experienced pleasure which is a feeling of happiness, enjoyment, or satisfaction. 

No doubt Antinous experienced much happiness and enjoyment with Hadrian. 

I am sure the most was when they could be just the two of them alone. 

Perhaps just talking about a subject they both loved. Walking together on the beautiful grounds of Hadrian’s Villa. 

Next, we have excitement itself. With all the traveling Antinous did the pure excitement at seeing all the wonders each place has to offer. 

Then there is enthusiasm. Antinous would have been enthusiastic to try new experiences especially when it came to the different Mysteries that he and Hadrian went through. 

This enthusiasm could possibly have made Hadrian feel young again and who knows maybe Hadrian lived at times vicariously through Antinous.  

When I see the synonym anticipation which means a feeling of excitement about something enjoyable that is going to happen. I picture Antinous about to be initiated into the Eleusinian Mysteries. Or the feeling of hunting the Libyan lion. 

We can’t forget ecstasy a feeling of great happiness and pleasure, often sexual pleasure that he experienced with Hadrian. 

Lastly there is joie de vivre a feeling of pleasure and excitement that comes from enjoying life. 


Monday, July 6, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY'S installment on the Heart of Antinous is STRENGTH. 

We are not talking about strength in the sense of able to lift heavy objects. 

What we are talking about is strong hearted. A person is strong hearted when they don’t give up, they fight for what they believe is right. 

They are not intimidated, and they let nothing get in their way. 

Another is someone who is confident and determined and is not easily influenced or worried by other people.

Antinous was in a unique position within the court of Hadrian.

Everyone in Court had their unique place from Senators to Generals who were always around the Emperor.

Accountants, Astrologers all the way down to the everyday workers who kept the Court moving. 

Antinous on the other hand was none of these. He could not be placed neatly into place as a plug into a hole. 

We know he was the beloved of Hadrian. He had the ear of the Emperor and for that many saw him as dangerous.

The daily intrigue within the Imperial Court had to be overwhelming. 

Through all of this Antinous was strong hearted. 

He only cared for and about the love of his life the Emperor Hadrian. He didn’t care at all what was going on in the Imperial Court their whispers and lies and because of this many rumors spread and people really hated Antinous for his unique position. 

So, Antinous never gave up. 

I am sure there were times that people tried to influence him for their personal gain but Antinous stood steadfast and true to his true love. He fought for what he believed in and the love that he and Hadrian shared.  


Sunday, July 5, 2020


FROM the 5th to 13th of July is the Ludi Apollinares, a Roman festival in honour of Apollo. This was celebrated with horse racing and theatre plays. Livy writes: "The people took part in them wearing wreaths of flowers. The doors to the houses were opened, meals eaten in the open." So a picnic outside today would make a lovely way to celebrate. Photo art by Keith MezaenAset Hoberg.

05-13 de julho é o Ludi Apollinares , um festival romano em honra de Apollo . Este foi celebrado com corridas de cavalos e peças de teatro . Livy escreve: " As pessoas participaram neles vestindo coroas de flores As portas para as casas foram abertas , refeições consumidas no aberto. ". Assim, um piquenique fora hoje faria uma maneira bonita de comemorar . arte da foto por Keith MezaenAset Hoberg .

5-13to de julio es el Ludi Apollinares , un festival romano en honor de Apolo. Este fue celebrado con las carreras de caballos y obras de teatro . Livio escribe: " Las personas que participaron en ellos con coronas de flores Las puertas de las casas se abrieron , comidas comidas al aire libre. ". Por lo que un picnic fuera hoy haría una bonita manera de celebrar. Foto del arte de Keith MezaenAset Hoberg .


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY'S installment is the fifth in the Heart of Antinous. So far, we have discussed that the heart of Antinous is full of wonder, brave, compassion and duty. 

Today we will add to that of SEEKER. 

First, lets look at Hadrian. He was a man who himself was a seeker. He was the only Emperor to have traveled the entire Empire of Rome. 

He was always interested in new ways of improving not only the empire but himself. 

For Antinous to have been with Hadrian he too had to possess the same qualities. If not, Hadrian would have been bored quickly and Antinous replaced. 

So Antinous had many of the same interest as Hadrian. 

Not only did Antinous also seek knowledge but above all else spiritual knowledge. 

We know of at least six times Antinous was initiated into varies mystery cults. 

Each of these cults possessed their own spiritual knowledge so, within these cults Antinous was seeking wisdom and knowledge far beyond the mundane world. 

What do you seek in Antinous? 


Saturday, July 4, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

TODAY'S installment on the Heart of Antinous is DUTY. 

One of the definitions of duty is a moral or legal obligation; a responsibility. 

I think as Antinous grew older and the relationship between him and Hadrian also grew Antinous realized he had a duty or obligation to perform. 

There is nothing written that because of the relationship he had with Hadrian that Antinous took advantage of it. He did not seek to use his position for any personal gain.

Antinous knew the duty or responsibility he had. He was just a boy from a Roman colony, possibly from a family of no means.

Antinous did realize that his duty was to love the Emperor Hadrian with all his heart.

And this is the greatest example of DUTY that Antinous gives us is the DUTY OF LOVE.

If you claim to be a follower of Antinous then your responsibility, your obligation, your responsibility is to Love as Antinous loved Hadrian.

This is but one aspect of  HOMOTHEOSIS: Gay-Man-Godliness-Becoming-The-Same.


Friday, July 3, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

THE third installment on the Heart of Antinous is Compassion. His compassion for animals especially dogs is evident.

His Compassion for people. 

The first miracle Antinous performed as a God was the inundation of the Nile. 

Saving millions of people throughout the empire. 

The East Face of the Obelisk, which is aligned to the rising sun Ra-Herakhte, speaks of the joy that fills the heart of Antinous since having been summoned to meet his heavenly father Ra-Herakhte and to become a god himself.

And Antinous immediately calls upon Hapi ...

Hapi, progenitor of the gods,
On behalf of Hadrian and Sabina,
Arrange the inundation in fortuitous time
To make fertile and bountiful, the fields
Of Both Upper and Lower Egypt!

Lastly the Compassion Antinous had for the love of his life, Emperor Hadrian. 

The truth surrounding the death of Antinous,is still a mystery but the most likely reason is that Antinous gave his life so to prolong the life of Hadrian.

So what are your thoughts in relation to the Heart of Antinous and his Compassion?


Thursday, July 2, 2020


LAODICEA was the financial center of the Eastern Empire plus being the location of a fabled Temple of Hermes/Mercury (photos on this page).

And in these 21st Century days of financial crisis it is interesting to see how Emperor Hadrian promoted his own "financial stability mechanism" with on-site bail-outs and emergency cash injections.

In July 129 AD, Hadrian and Antinous arrived in triumph at Laodicea following their glowing visit to Ephesus.

The welcome was stupendous, especially since the Laodiceans knew the emperor was bringing not only chests full of money but also trade and business contracts and tax incentive reforms, all aimed at boosting prosperity and banking security.

The city stood on a spur of Mount Salbacus, one mile from the left bank of the Lycus, between the Asopus and Mount Cadmus, where it had a commanding view of the region between the Lycus and the Caprus.

It was one of the principal cities of Asia Minor, both as a major production center and a commercial hub, being famous for its woollen fabrics and its sandals.

It had received from Rome the title of free city, and it became the centre of a conventus juridicus, which comprised twenty-four cities besides itself.

Its wealthy citizens embellished it with beautiful monuments. The city had a school of  medicine and gave birth to the two skeptic philosophers, Antiochus and Theiodas. 

Its coins and inscriptions show evidence of the worship of Zeus, Æsculapius, Apollo, and the emperors.

Laodicea was one of the richest cities in the world, being the banking center of the east. So, great preparations must have been made for the visit of the Imperial entourage.

Entering the city of Laodicea during the summer of 129, Hadrian and Antinous were immediately welcomed by the wealthy population.

Due to its location and to the nearby medicinal baths, the city of Laodicea was a banking capital of the region and a place where wealthy merchants went to retire and enjoy the clean mountain air.

It was therefore a place very enthusiastic about the reforms that Hadrian had made and about his policies of Hellenism, which the Laodiceans would have considered good for business.

The Laodiceans had a great Temple to Zeus, Apollo and to Hermes, and it is the Temple of Hermes that is here of great importance because in Roman theology.

Mercury was the god of commerce which was all important in the rich city of Laodicea. It is therefore to the wealth of commerce, which had enriched the lives of the retirees of Laodicea, that we praise the policies of Hadrian the leader of Roman business.

FLAMEN ANTONIUS SUBIA suggests deeper spiritual insights which make this "Mercurial" city special to us:

"Antinous must have had an intense initiation into these financial mysteries, which were carried out in the courtyard of the Temple of Mercury, close to the watchful eye of the god. We pray to Mercury who ensures our livelihood and the success of the material world, which keeps our modern civilization in a constant state of progress."

Wednesday, July 1, 2020


ON July 1st, 1894, this historic photograph was taken of the discovery of one of the most beautiful statues of Antinous ever found.

French archaeologists were in the process of uncovering this statue at the Temple of Apollo at Delphi in Greece when the photographer asked the diggers to pose for posterity.

Hadrian and Antinous visited Delphi and were initiated into Mysteries.

The Delphi Antinous statue was found standing perfectly upright, which indicates that it had been very carefully buried by the priests so as to protect it from marauding Christians. Apparently this statue was considered to be very special.

There are many larger-than- life statues of Antinous. And there are many busts. But the Delphi is one of the few life-size statues, and Johnston said it is possible that it was indeed modeled from the living Antinous.

If that was indeed the case, then it is possible, according to John J Johnston, a leading expert on Antinous, that Antinous was 5-foot-8 (173 cms) in height.

Owing to the long exposure time, the photographer asked the workmen to stand still (or as still as possible) for what must have seemed like an eternity to these simple men (one or two looking like a young Antinous) while the shutter was open.

This photo is one of the most emotionally touching portraits of ANTINOUS THE GAY GOD. It proves that the Ancient Priests of Antinous took special care to hide their precious statue from the barbarians. They didn't just dump Him into a hole -- they carefully buried Him standing upright with dignity!!

The photo is superb ... Antinous stands eternally in focus in the center ... the mortal men are blurred like the flames of votive candles which flicker briefly and go out ... only Antinous endures.

One young Antinous-looking man's face is in focus ... representing those few mortals who look into the Mysteries of Antinous....

Tuesday, June 30, 2020


ANTINOUS is the God of the Men with the Pink Triangles, gay victims of the Nazis. 

So it is with profound humility that we proclaim an anti-Nazi resistance fighter and the last known gay Jewish survivor of the Holocaust to be a Saint of Antinous.

GAD BECK died in Berlin in 2012 six days before his 89th birthday on June 30.

Beck was a pioneering gay activist and educator in a severely anti-homosexual, repressive post-World War II German society. He was famous for his witty, lively style of speaking.

On a German talk show, he said with a wink to his small physical size, "The Americans in New York called me a big hero. I said no... I’m really a little hero."

Perhaps the single most important experience that shaped his life was the war-time effort to rescue his boyfriend. Beck donned a Hitler Youth uniform and entered a deportation center to free his Jewish lover Manfred Lewin.

After bluffing his way out of the deportation center, as the two youths were hurrying down the road to freedom, Manfred stopped and said he couldn't go on. 

He tearfully said he would never forgive himself if he abandoned his family. So, with a parting kiss, he turned back and Gad never saw him again.

The Nazis would later deport the entire Lewin family to Auschwitz, where they were murdered.

Gad's only memento of Manfred was a little notebook with poems, sketches and essays which Manfred had written, plus a photograph. Gad treasured them all his life.

Speaking about his life as a gay Jew, Beck invoked a line frequently cited about homosexuality: "God doesn't punish for a life of love."

He was featured in the film THE LIFE OF GAD BECK (Die Freiheit des Erzählens: Das Leben des Gad Beck) as well as in the German documentary film PARAGRAPH 175. (The notorious Paragraph 175 of the German Penal Code outlawed homosexuality before Adolf Hitler became chancellor in 1933, and the Nazi party radically intensified the enforcement of the anti-gay law, including deportations to extermination camps.)

Aside from the two documentaries, however, he said with typical humor that he was still waiting for the blockbuster, feature-length movie about his life, and he knew just the man to bring it to the big screen.

"Only Steven Spielberg could film my life – forgive me, forgive me," Beck quipped.

He had immigrated to Israel in 1947. After his return to Germany in 1979, the first post-Holocaust head of Berlin's Jewish community, Heinz Galinski, appointed Beck director of the Jewish Adult Education Center in Berlin.

In a telephone interview with Judith Kessler, editor of the Berlin Jewish community's monthly magazine, Juedisches Berlin, she told THE JERUSALEM POST that Beck would organize gay singles meeting in the center.

"He was open, sweet and would speak with everybody," she said. Kessler, who knew Beck since 1989, added that he would attend the annual Christopher Street Day Parade for gay pride in Berlin and wave an Israeli flag.

Beck's father was an Austrian Jew and his mother converted to Judaism.

The Nazi racial laws defined Beck as mischling (mixed-breed), and he and his father were carted off to a holding compound in the Rosenstrasse in central Berlin. 

After the non-Jewish wives of the prisoners launched a massive street protest in 1943, Beck was released. There were "thousands of women who stood for days... my aunts demanded 'give us our children and men'," he said.

The Rosenstrasse demonstration helped debunk the widespread myth in post-Holocaust German society that resistance against Nazism was futile.

"The Rosenstrasse event made one thing absolutely clear to me: I won't wait until we get deported," said Beck.

Following his release, Beck joined Chug Chaluzi, an underground Zionist resistance youth group, and played a key role in securing the survival of Jews in Berlin.

According to the entry about him at the Holocaust Memorial Museum in Washington, he noted that "as a homosexual, I was able to turn to my trusted non-Jewish, homosexual acquaintances to help supply food and hiding places."

Shortly before the end of the war in 1945, a Jewish spy working for the Gestapo betrayed Beck and some of his fellow resistance fighters.

He was held captive at a Jewish transit camp in Berlin. After the defeat of Nazi Germany, Beck continued his Zionist work and helped Jewish survivors emigrate to Palestine. He remained in Israel between 1947 and 1979.

Monday, June 29, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

THE next installment on the Heart of Antinous is Bravery.

It takes a lot to be brave. Just imagine any soldier facing a battle or coming out to your family and friends. 

In the case of our Gay God Antinous the heart of bravery was shown when he left home to go to Rome. 

Also, to face the fierce lion of Libya and most of all how brave against all odds to be in love with the Emperor of Rome. 

Of course, there are many more instances of Bravery that our God Antinous encountered. I have named just a slight few. 

What are your thoughts on the bravery that is in the heart of Antinous? 


Sunday, June 28, 2020


THE last of our three Uranian Patriarchs, Edward Carpenter was born in Brighton England on the 29th of August, 1844, to a very large middle-class family. 

While his brothers went into the military, Edward became a scholar, with great success and eventually even taught at Cambridge where he was required to become ordained as a curate of the Anglican Church.

It was at this time, when he was 24, that he first read Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman and was completely changed. He resigned his position at Cambridge and devoted his life to the working class, becoming a Socialist philosopher, lecturing, organizing and speaking for working men.

When his parents died, he received an inheritance that he used to purchase a rural estate at Millthrope, which he turned into a veritable Socialist Commune. He repressed his homosexuality for much of his life, channeling his desire into politically inspired friendships.

But the Millthrope house gave him the freedom to express his feelings more openly, and he began to write books on the subject of Uranian Love. He was deeply influenced by Hindu spirituality, and visited India, all of which emerged in his spiritual view of the Socialist movement, which was not so much about political revolution, but directed towards a change in human consciousness, of which homosexuality rapidly became his greatest cause.

While returning from India he met George Merrill on the train. It would be the love of his life. The younger man soon moved into the house at Millthrope, the two became inseparable lovers whose relationship lasted over forty years.

In 1908, he published The Intermediate Sex, the first widely available book on the subject of homosexuality. After the death of John Addington Symonds, with whom he had been closely allied, Edward Carpenter assumed the role as torch bearer, and subsequently published dozens of books and essays for the cause of gay liberation.

He died on the 28th of June, 1929, in Guildford England, and though not widely known at the time, was to later become a spiritual patriarch for the gay liberation movement of the late 1960s and '70s. He is regarded as a Saint and Patriarch of the Religion of Antinous, and remembered as one of the first fathers whose work changed the world with subtle power.

Saturday, June 27, 2020


THIS is the day the Liturgical Calendar of the Religion of Antinous sets aside for remembrance of Saint Judy Garland, whose death was the spark that ignited the Stonewall Riots on a sultry night in 1969 when a bunch of drag queens and assorted other gay men decided they weren't in the mood to put up with yet another raid by the corrupt and brutal NYPD.

Gays had had enough and they had just suffered a terrible shock — Judy Garland's tragic death on June 22 had rocked the gay world. It was said that 13 twisters raged through Kansas the day Judy died, which — in Kansas — in June — is a pretty safe bet, in any case. But still, and all the same ....

Judy had died in London, and amid much news media hype, her body was flown back to New York for a memorial service which drew a huge crowd of grief-stricken gay men who gathered outside Campbell's Funeral Chapel in Manhattan — on June 27, 1969.

Afterwards, the bars were jammed with gay men drowning their sorrows in booze and drugs while listening to Judy Garland songs full blast on every jukebox.

The mood was electrified by a sense of solidarity in grieving for a fallen idol. Gay men had surprised themselves by turning out en masse for Judy's funeral. They had experienced strength in numbers for the first time. They had been on national TV news.

In an unprecedented move by prime-time national news anchormen, Walter Cronkite and Huntley-Brinkley had talked about Judy Garland's "tremendous appeal among male homosexual fans" — at supper time when whole families were watching the evening news!

Blacks were standing up for their rights. Women were burning their bras. The Chicano Movement was gathering steam. And now "ho-mo-sexuals" (the announcers were unaccustomed to speaking the word aloud) were having the audacity to congregate outside a sacred chapel in broad daylight — and they even showed their faces on the evening news!

Straight people were being confronted with homosexuals right there on television beamed into their homes. And — more importantly — homosexuals were seeing themselves and their brothers/sisters on national television news. Gays in isolated places who had worshipped Judy Garland at the movies or on LP and tape, were now watching other gay people weeping for her in New York. For the first time, gay people in isolated places saw themselves on TV. We were not alone in our grief at the passing of a star with whom we somehow innately felt connected.

It was a Friday night. Late June. Hot and steamy. The bars were filled to bursting. Gay men were sharing a rare moment of solidarity in powerful emotions. There was a feeling, not only in New York, but around the world, that a paradigm shift had taken place. A gay icon had died suddenly and tragically (shades of Antinous) and we gay people everywhere found ourselves in a catharsis of identity change. None of us understood what was happening. Just as it was with being gay, we gay men couldn't explain it, we just "felt" it and "knew" it to be true.

And THAT moment was when the Manhattan police happened to stage one of their periodic raids on queers. Basically it was a routine raid on an average gay bar. Nobody had reckoned with what would happen next. Even gay men were surprised by what happened next.


We were men who had been accustomed to being timid fraidy-cats. Men who had never dared to stand up for their sexuality. Drag queens and faggots never fought back. That was a fact of gay survival. We knew we were gay. And we knew what we weren't. We were not "MEN".

Grief turned to outrage. It was a spontaneous uprising fuelled by rage. The vice squad was overwhelmed. Reinforcements had to be sent in. Gay men stood their ground and advanced on the police, pushing them back.

It was the turning point for us. Gay men throughout America — and later in London, Berlin, Sydney and elsewhere — began standing up for themselves under the banner "Remember Stonewall".

In a sense, Judy Garland died for us. Had it not been for her tragic death — strangling on vomit over a toilet bowl in a London hotel suite — there might not have been any Stonewall Riots.

Flamen Antinoalis ANTONIUS SUBIA puts the Stonewall Riots into a spiritual context:

"It was the first resistance by homosexuals against the repression of two thousand years, and the beginning of the Gay Liberation movement. The importance of the Stonewall Riots is the awakening of gay consciousness, the throwing off of the coils of the python that had for so many centuries enveloped our divine form of Love. This sacred revolt is holy to Apollo, Dionysus, and Diana combined as the guardian spirits of Homosexuality. Our modern Gay society was born on this occasion, and all of the peace and freedom that we have obtained in the these short decades are due to the courage that erupted on that Sacred Night in front of the Stonewall Bar."

Friday, June 26, 2020


By Priest Michaelus Isom

OVER the next several days I want to share and also get your thoughts.  The topic is: The Heart of Antinous.

When you think about the heart of Antinous, what comes to mind? 

Recently I set up a larger working altar that when visitors come over there is a place for us to meet. 

After sitting up the altar I just sat in front of it and felt I needed to grab some paper and write what I was feeling. 

So The Heart of Antinous came about.

Now this is not in any order, just thoughts that were impressed upon me.

The first on The Heart of Antinous is.  His heart was full of wonder.  As he traveled first from his home to Rome and then with Hadrian the things he saw and witnessed.  The magnificence of Rome, Greece and Egypt. The mighty Pyramids of Giza. All this and more were breathtaking to Antinous.