Saturday, October 31, 2026

TRIUMPH OF THE LIBERATOR


ANTINOUS the mortal is dead. Antinous the God is born! 

On this day, October 31st, we surrender ourselves, body and soul, to the joy of Lord Liber, and join in the festival of Halloween, spreading the Love and Liberation of Antinous to the world of the living and the dead. This is the second day of the Ecclesiastic Year.

The festival of Antinous Liberator, the New Dionysus, is the place from which life comes and all love-joy with the ever-present specter of Our Lady death by its side.


The New God Antinous Liberator, sets us free with a wave of his hand. 
He destroys the bondage that holds our immortal spirit prisoner to the cycles of life and death, as the chains of time and matter fall of their own accord.

In benediction, Antinous Liberator confers the flame of Homotheosis upon the hearts of his chosen lovers so that we may indulge and burn in the ecstasy of being One with HIM.

We are free from the masquerade of the spirit in this world of illusion, we are unclothed before him. 


From his lips we drink the winged intoxication of the flesh and abandoned all reason and logic at his feet.

Antinous stands upon the crescent of the Moon. He passes through the Arches of the spheres, the 7 Archons bow down before HIM.

The god-power of Antinous shines over the face of darkness. The Spirits of the Dead awaken to dance as the wine of freedom flows down into the spider-heart of Tartarus.


As Dark as events in the world may become ... a powerful light is shining stronger for Gay, Bi, Lesbian and Transgender people everywhere in the world!


Every day, more and more of us come together,

Every day, the fire of Antinous spreads

His name becomes less a strange, unheard of and difficult to pronounce name from Ancient times ... and more a realization that once there was a time when being gay was a sacred state of being, and that there was a god who represented us, and spoke on our behalf to the immortal powers.

Antinous is with us again ... his power is growing stronger in our hearts.

Antinous is within all of US!

The Blessing of Antinous is with us all!

The Arisen Antinous has Come Again! 

Ave Antinous!

~ANTONIUS SUBIA

Friday, October 30, 2026

NEW SAINTS OF ANTINOUS FOR 2026




NEW saints of Antinous were announced by the Hollywood Temple of Antinous tonight during Foundation Day ceremonies shared globally with worshipers from around the world via Zoom.

Foundation Day commemorates the founding of the city of Antinoopolis by Emperor Hadrian on 30 October 130 AD on the shores of the Nile where Antinous had died a few days earlier.

That was 1,896 years ago, and Foundation Day marks the beginning of our liturgical calendar ... Happy New Year 1896!


After weeks of deliberations, FLAMEN ANTONIUS SUBIA announced the following New Year's List of SAINTS OF ANTINOUS for the new liturgical year.

SAINTS OF ANTINOUS

LESLIE FEINBERG was an American butch lesbian, LGBTQ+ rights activist, and the author of Stone Butch Blues, frequently considered an essential work for the LGBTQ+ community and labor organizers. She died on November 15, 2014.

GUY HOCQUENGHEM was a French writer, philosopher, and gay liberation theorist. Hocquenghem's 1972 book "Homosexual Desire" is today considered the founding text of queer theory. Hocquenghem also wrote works including "The Wrath of the Lamb," an experiment in millenarian and apocalyptic narrative; "The Atomic Heart," written in response to his deteriorating health and espousing a philosophy of dandyism, gnosticism, and Epicureanism; and Eve, a narrative combining the story of Genesis with a description of changes to his body from AIDS-related symptoms. He died from AIDS-related complications on August 28, 1988.

DAAYIEE ABDULLAH was an American Imam, scholar, and activist. Daayiee Abdullah was, after the murder of Saint Muhsin Hendricks and until his own death on August 3, 2025, one of only five openly gay Imams in the world and the first openly gay Imam in America. In 1979, he was a coordinator for the National March on Washington for Lesbian and Gay Rights. In 2011, Abdullah created an LGBTQ-friendly mosque in Washington D.C, called Masjid Nur Al-Isslaah ("Mosque for Enlightenment and Reformation"), and, in 2015, he founded the Mecca Institute, a self-described "inclusive and progressive" Islamic seminary.

ABU NUWAS was a gay classical Arabic poet, a Muslim mystic, and the foremost representative of the muhdath poetry that developed during the Abbasid Caliphate. His lyric poetry, which is mostly homoerotic, ridiculed heterosexual propriety and the condemnation of homosexuality. He earned the favour of the Abbasid caliphs Harun al-Rashid, who allegedly had a homosexual relationship with Jaʿfar the Barmakid, and his successor, Al-Amin, who fell madly in love with a male slave named Kauthar. Abu Nuwas died in 814 in Baghdad. He (like Harun) also features as a character in a number of stories in One Thousand and One Nights. In 2007, the Abu Nawas Association, which aims to decriminalise homosexuality in Algeria, was founded.

DAVID McREYNOLDS was a prominent American peace activist. Called a hero of the anti-war movement, David McReynolds was a staff member with the War Resisters League for 40 years and was twice a candidate for President of the United States, running on the Socialist Party USA ticket in 1980 and 2000. He was America's first openly gay presidential candidate and, in 1958, one of the first gay candidates to run for Congress. McReynolds died on August 17, 2018.

JOSÉ PÉREZ OCAÑA was a Spanish gay performing artist, painter, and LGBTQ+ rights activist. A central figure in Barcelona's counterculture during the Spanish transition to democracy and standing out as an icon of opposition to Francoism and its social conventions, his artistic endeavors are considered pioneering sexual and gender disobedience practices. He died on September 18, 1983.

AMELIO ROBLES ÁVILA was colonel during the Mexican Revolution who lived openly as queer and a transgender man from the age of 24 until his death at age 95 on December 9, 1984. He insisted on being treated as a man, sticking his gun in the face of individuals who misgendered him until they acknowledged him as such. In 1970, he became the first person assigned female at birth to be recognized as a male veteran by the Mexican government.

MARIE EQUI was an American lesbian, anti-war activist, and medical doctor who devoted herself to treating working-class and poor patients and regularly provided birth control and abortions at a time when both were illegal. She became a political activist and advocated for women's suffrage, an eight-hour workday, and the right to free speech. She died on July 13, 1952. In August 2019, Equi was inducted into the Rainbow Honor Walk in San Francisco’s Castro neighborhood which notes LGBTQ+ people who have "made significant contributions in their fields."

JUNIPER BLESSING (September 22, 2006 - May 10th, 2026) was a talented 19-year-old transgender woman, artist, and atmospheric science student whose life was cut tragically short. Born in Princeton, New Jersey, and raised in Santa Fe, New Mexico, she graduated from the New Mexico School for the Arts as a gifted vocalist with a magnificent five-octave range before attending the University of Washington in Seattle. Remembered by her loved ones as a uniquely compassionate, brilliant, and fiercely loyal individual who was "pure love." On the evening of May 10th 2026 she was stabbed to death more than 40 times in the basement laundry room of her student housing building. While police determined there was no evidence of a hate crime, and believe the murderer, who turned himself in three days later, to have schizophrenia and mental psychosis, the extreme violence of her death suggests that hatred was involved. Her sudden and violent death sparked profound grief and community memorials across the country.

ALEXANDER VON HUMBOLDT (14 September 1769 - 6 May 1859 ) was a visionary Prussian polymath, naturalist, and explorer whose monumental work laid the foundations for modern geography, ecology, and meteorology. Traveling extensively through the Americas and Central Asia, he pioneered a holistic view of nature as a single, interconnected global force ... an insight that profoundly shaped the development of environmental science. Humboldt was also a deeply empathetic humanitarian who fiercely condemned colonialism and slavery wherever he traveled. While his public life was defined by scientific triumph, his private letters and lifelong, deeply affectionate partnerships with men, including the soldier Reinhard von Haeften, reveal that he was gay, living out his intense emotional and romantic attachments entirely within a close-knit circle of male companions.

PETER GEORGE DOYLE (June 3, 1843 - April 19, 1907 ) was an Irish-born American transit worker best remembered as the longtime romantic companion, muse, and lover of poet Walt Whitman. Born in Limerick, Ireland, Doyle emigrated to the United States as a child and later served in the Confederate Army during the American Civil War, during which he was wounded at Antietam and briefly imprisoned. In 1865, while working as a 21-year-old streetcar conductor in Washington, D.C., he met the 45-year-old Whitman on a stormy winter night, sparking an immediate, profound intimacy that spanned nearly thirty years. Doyle’s working-class background and youthful energy deeply inspired Whitman’s poetry, positioning him as the primary muse for the homoerotic "Calamus" poems in Leaves of Grass. He faithfully nursed Whitman after the poet suffered a debilitating stroke in 1873, and though Whitman's subsequent relocation to New Jersey restricted their daily contact, the two maintained an impassioned correspondence until Whitman's death in 1892. Doyle spent his later years working for the Pennsylvania Railroad, and his preservation of Whitman's affection-filled letters ... later published as Calamus in 1897 ... provided invaluable, historic insight into the true emotional and sexual nature of America's foundational poet.

ERISHKEGAL GIANNA (GIA) BATHORY-VON ECSED (Born: December 30, 1980 - Died: December 22, 2023) was a civil rights, LGBTQ rights and Pagan rights activist who championed Gay, lesbian and trans rights for 30+ years and was one of the founding forces behind the Human Rights Campaign, the Kentucky Fairness Alliance and who spent her life supporting local LGBTQ communities until her death in 2023. She was the founder and Archpriestess of the Temple of Great Mother, America's first and only traditional pagan Temple. Trained in the Pythian Oracular tradition, as well as various forms of occult practices, she moved through the circles of the Ordo Templi Orientis, the Ordo Hermetica and was a devoted Maenad of Dionysus who reinstated the seasonal Bacchanalias, staged the Wild Hunts and Dionesuke celebrations in America, through her tireless campaigning to undo hundreds of years of misinformation and propaganda around the worship of Dionysus. She was a fierce defender of the Dionysian path, dedicating her life to the study, practice and worship of the God of transformation, liberation and ecstasy. She engaged in the walk of Elusis, entered the Mysteries of both Demeter and Persephone, as well as spending her life in the Mysteries of Dionysus. Her legacy is carried on by her Sister Christine and her Brother Cesare. She was much loved and adored by those closest to her. Her spirit now rests in the lap of the God she so beloved in life. We hope in her death she will receive the peace, love and comfort she was so often not afforded in life. Thank you for your consideration in placing her among those who devoted their lives to Antinuous-Dionysus-Bacchus. We truly feel this is a fitting final role for her.

T.E. LAWRENCE (August 16, 1888 - May 19, 1935), widely known as Lawrence of Arabia, was a British Army officer, archaeologist, diplomat, and writer. During his pre-WWI archaeological work in Carchemish, Lawrence formed an intense, close bond with an adolescent Arab water boy named Dahoum, to whom he dedicated his autobiographical book "Seven Pillars of Wisdom," which includes vivid, emotionally charged, and homoerotic passages about male bonding in the desert, contributing to long-standing speculation about his inner life.

DOLLY PARTON (January 19, 1946 - August 25, 2026) was an iconic American singer-songwriter, actress, philanthropist, and businesswoman known as the "Queen of Country."  was a longtime, vocal ally and icon for the LGBTQ+ community, consistently championing acceptance, kindness, and equal rights throughout her career.

WILLEM ARONDEUS (22 August 1894 – 1 July 1943) a Dutch gay non-Jewish artist and writer who led a group in bombing the Amsterdam Public Records Office in order to hinder the Nazi round-up of Jews, was executed with 12 others by firing squad. "Let it be known that homosexuals are not cowards," were his final words. 

FRIEDRICH ALFRED KRUPP  (July 17, 1787 - October 8, 1826) was the wealthiest industrialist in Germany. He died at his castle outside Essen. The official cause was a cerebral hemorrhage. The cause everyone in Berlin understood was something else.  For four years, Krupp had spent his winters at the Hotel Quisisana on the Italian island of Capri, where he hosted long elaborate parties for local Italian fishermen and boys at a private grotto on the cliff below the hotel. Italian socialist newspapers had begun naming him that fall.  His wife Margarethe had already gone to the Kaiser in October, asking him to intervene. The Kaiser had her committed to an asylum instead. Then on November 15, the German Social Democratic paper Vorwärts ran the full story. Krupp was the sole heir to the largest armaments fortune in Europe. He was dead within a week. Rumors began immediately and have never gone away.  Kaiser Wilhelm II attended the funeral personally and denounced "the lying press."

AGENOR DE MIRANDA ARAÚJO NETO, known as Cazuza (April 4, 1958 - July 7, 1990) was a Brazilian singer, songwriter, and poet whose rebellious spirit and emotional honesty made him one of the defining voices of Brazilian rock. Through songs such as Exagerado and O Tempo Não Para, he challenged social conventions and expressed a fierce commitment to personal freedom. His openness about his sexuality and his decision to speak publicly as a major celebrity living with HIV helped confront prejudice during the AIDS crisis. He died at 32, leaving a lasting legacy of artistic freedom and LGBTQIA+ visibility. 

RENATO MANFREDINI JÚNIOR, known as Renato Russo (March 27, 1960 - October 11, 1996) was lead singer and principal songwriter of Legião Urbana, one of Brazil’s most influential rock bands. An openly gay artist, he gave voice to love, loneliness, identity, and social alienation, reaching millions of listeners across generations. Songs such as Meninos e Meninas offered an important point of recognition for young LGBTQIA+ people growing up in a society where homosexuality remained heavily stigmatized. He died at 36, leaving a musical legacy that continues to affirm the dignity of those who live and love outside conventional expectations.

CÁSSIA REJANE ELLER, known as Cássia Eller (December 10, 1962 - December 29, 2001) was a celebrated Brazilian singer whose powerful voice and unconventional stage presence made her one of the country’s most distinctive musical artists. She lived openly with her female partner, Maria Eugênia Vieira Martins, and their family became a landmark in public discussions about same-sex parenting and legal recognition of LGBTQIA+ families. After Cássia’s death, Maria Eugênia’s fight to retain custody of Cássia’s son brought national attention to the rights of same-sex partners and families. Cássia remains an enduring symbol of authenticity, lesbian visibility, and the right to love and build a family openly.


THE FOUNDING OF ANTINOOPOLIS


ON this day we commemorate the founding of the Sacred City of Antinous, the glorious city of ANTINOOPOLIS in Egypt as it originally was called and later Ansena and Antinoé.

Our Lord Hadrian Augustus, Emperor of Rome, Pontifex Maximus, the New Jupiter, Hercules reborn, consecrated the shore of the Nile where Antinous fell, and solemnly founded the Holy City of Antinoopolis in Egypt in the year 130 AD
.

Antinous had risen again from the depths of Tartarus, he had conquered death and returned to the place of the living.

By Victory and Proclamation, Antinous was elevated to godliness, and the ancient religion of Our God was set in motion. 


The Priesthood of Antinous was ordained, sacred statues and images proliferated, and Temples rose up in every corner of the world, for the glory of Antinous the God.

We exalt in the deification of Antinous, and marvel at his assumption into heaven. 


On this day we concelebrate the Foundation of Antinoopolis by re-founding the sacred city within our hearts, declaring ourselves the New Stones of Antinoopolis. 

With love for Antinous in our hearts, the New Temple of Antinous was founded in 2002, called Ecclesia Antinoi, and the New Priesthood of Antinous initiated.

We recognize the Foundation of Antinoopolis as the first day of the New and Holy Year of Religion of Antinous.

Thursday, October 29, 2026

HOMOPHOBIA MARTYRS REMEMBERED
ON ANNIVERSARY OF DEATH OF ANTINOUS



ANTINOUS worshipers on three continents tonight took part in a global candlelight vigil in memory of martyr victims of homophobia.


The vigil drew Zoom participants from across the United States, as well as from South America and Europe. The ceremonies coincided with the October 28 observance of the Death of Antinous on that date in the year 130 AD.

At the Hollywood Temple of Antinous, the founder of the modern religion of Antinous, ANTONIUS SUBIA, related the true-life story of how Antinous drowned in the Nile at the end of October in the year 130 AD, and how Hadrian proclaimed him the last deity of the Classical Era.

Priest HERNESTUS, participating from Germany, solemnly read out the names of martyr saints ... and linked them to the tragic death of Antinous.

With a quavering voice, Hernestus paused from time to time to remark on individuals whose names were on the list. 

He also honoured hundreds of victims of homophobic attacks around the world.

Antonius noted that the list of names represents only the tip of the iceberg ... and only one 12-month period. Countless thousands more suffer and are murdered on a daily basis around the world.

On October 28th we commemorate the death of Antinous and his descent into the Underworld.

"Antinous passes out of the world of the living tonight and enters the Underworld, where he hears the names of all these people and gathers them to him and embraces them and saves them from oblivion," Antonius told worshipers.

"I pray to Antinous to watch over them, now as his divine spirit sinks down into the place of the dead ... and when he returns, that he will bring for hope again, that these deaths will stop," Antonius said. "This is what I wish for."

On October 30th, another international interactive online ceremony will be held consecrating newly nominated saints of Antinous for 2026 and also ritually celebrating the return of Antinous from the Underworld and the establishment of the city of   ANTINOOPOLIS by Emperor Hadrian on that date in 130 AD.

ANTINOUS IN THE UNDERWORLD

 


ANTINOUS is dead. Hadrian is weeping over his limp body on the banks of the Nile where his beloved perished in late October of the year 130 AD.

While mourners wail in the world of the living, Antinous descends into the Underworld. The modern Religion of Antinous commemorates this descent into the Egyptian Duat on October 29th.

Flamen Antonius Subia says:

Antinous is embraced by Osiris beneath the water of the Holy Nile, and he is given over to Hermes-Anubis and led into the underworld.

He appears before the Lords of the scale of Maat, but his spirit is divine and the scales crumble at his touch.

Hermes-Anubis escorts Antinous into the Hall of the Queen of the Dead, Persephone, and because he is a witness of the Mysteries of Eleusis, he obtains from her the pomegranate of immortality.

The immortal spirit of Antinous does not taste death, and he is given to drink of the fountain that restores memory because he has learned from Orpheus that he is from the Earth but is a Child of the Stars.

Antinous conquers death and returns from darkness. At midnight Antinous the God arises from the Nile and steps onto the shore from which he fell. The spirits of the entourage of Dionysus attend his resurrection and he is reborn as the New Osiris-Dionysus.

In the Religion of Antinous, this is the last day of the Ecclesiastic Year, it is spent in darkness and in solemn devotion.

As Antinous journeys through the underworld, we confront the weakness of being without our god, we reflect on the passage of the year, and on the influence of Antinous upon our lives, and we pray for the triumph of his return.


At midnight, a pure candle is ignited to symbolize the deification of Antinous Our God.

Wednesday, October 28, 2026

ANTINOUS DIES AS A MORTAL
RISES AS A GOD AT THE FEAST
OF THE BENNU PHOENIX



ON October 28th we commemorate the tragic death of Antinous in the Nile in October 130 AD. October 28th is also the Egyptian Day of Transformation into the Bennu Bird. 

This festival is the conclusion of the Mysteries of Osiris ... a festival which Antinous and Hadrian witnessed in Hermopolis during the final days of the mortal life of Antinous. 

They had already visited the Shrine of the Bennu (phoenix) Bird in Heliopolis Egypt. 

Now in Hermopolis, during the passion play, Antinous and Hadrian see how Isis and Nephthys search for and finally find the body of Osiris. 

Then, using the Scroll of Thoth from the sacred library at Hermopolis, Isis raises Osiris from the dead and transforms him into a spirit which can pass from the Underworld into the world of the living.

At the end of the Festival of the Passion of Isis and Osiris, Antinous plunges into the Nile under mysterious circumstances. Grieving Hadrian proclaims him a god ... he is worshiped throughout the Empire as Antinous in the form of Osiris. And Antinous is worshiped as a lunar deity. 

There is a spell of Transformation in the Book of the Dead, Chapter 83 (LXXXIII): 

I fly up and out of the Primeval Waters 
I come into being as the God Kheper
I am the Bennu, the Soul of Ra,
and the guide of the gods in the Tuat.
I become a Shining One, 
I am Mighty,
I become sacred among the Gods,
I am the Moon God
who vanquishes all darkness.


The OBELISK OF ANTINOUS speaks of Antinous becoming "a shining one" and also of being full of the "Semen of the First God" which is the creative force of the universe. That means Antinous can assume "any form his heart desires" since he (like Osiris) is one with the First God ... and one with the Bennu Bird.

Antinous IS the Phoenix.

THE DEATH OF ANTINOUS



ON October 28 the Religion of Antinous commemorates The Death of Antinous.

Near the village of Hir-wer, Antinous fell into the Nile and drowned.

There are those who believe that he was murdered, or that he willingly gave himself over to human sacrifice to prolong the life of his beloved Hadrian, or that his death was the suicidal effect of teenage melodrama, or that is was merely an accident, but there is no way to know, no way to be certain.

Grief-stricken Hadrian only said he "plunged into the Nile" but never elaborated on the circumstances of the death of his beloved.


Flamen Antinoalis Antonius Subia says:

We priests of Antinous do not take a definite position and leave the matter as an unknowable mystery. The manner in which Antinous died is not important, only the effect that his death had upon the world has significance.

On this day, we solemnly and silently mourn the Death of Antinous whom Hadrian loved and for whom he wept, and we sorrow for the loss of such great beauty at so young an age.

We pray for the Bithynian boy who died so far from home.

With his death, our religion was set in motion.

We lament and exalt in the grief of Hadrian that was so strong and so powerful that it spread to the whole face of the world, and affects us still today.

We pray also for all those homosexuals who have died in youth as a consequence of repression, we mourn the suicides, and commit them to the soothing arms of Antinous, who was assumed into the Nile for all of us.


It is one of the great ironies of history that, by dying dramatically, a  young person who was unremarkable except for his beauty became irrevocably bound with the most powerful man in the world. 

Emperor Hadrian proclaimed Antinous a God. He established a city on the bend of the Nile where the young man died — Antinoopolis. 

He named a constellation in the heavens after Antinous.

And without gentle Antinous at his side, Hadrian became an embittered and broken man. He became capricious and at times cruel. A reign which had been marked by Hellenistic principles of tolerance descended into bloodshed.

It is indeed remarkable how one young man, a commoner with no wealth or political influence, changed the course of history simply by dying. And the thousands of statues sculpted on orders of grieving Hadrian became the iconic image of Classical beauty — the last deity of Ancient Greece and Rome.

Antinous fell into the Nile, beneath the swirling waves, but when his body was pulled from the water ... a God emerged. Antinous is our God, he has accomplished the salvation of all lovers of his beauty. His is our salvation. He is Antinous the Gay God. He is the last pagan God of Classical Rome.

For centuries, he was worshiped in secret by gay men who were afraid to worship him publicly. Men such as Oscar Wilde and Walt Whitman sang his praises. When the Nazis marched into the offices of gay-rights advocate Magnus Hirschfeld in Berlin, they smashed a ceramic wall relief of Antinous which Dr. Hirschfeld had set in a place of reverence over the doorway.

And now, in the 21st Century, the "Most Great and Good God" (as he was known among his followers) is being discovered by a whole new generation of people seeking gay spirituality.


We dedicate our lives and our souls to fulfilling the Divine Hadrian's command to establish the Religion of Antinous for all who seek gay spirituality. We dedicate our lives and our souls to serving Antinous the Gay God.

Tuesday, October 27, 2026

ANTINOUS AND THE SCROLL OF THOTH
BY WHICH ISIS RAISED OSIRIS
FROM THE DEAD



AS we commemorate the death of Antinous on October 28th, we need to remember what likely transpired during the hours leading up with his demise and deification.

On October 27th Antinous and the Imperial entourage were in the ancient city of Hermopolis, the Sacred City of Thoth/Hermes during the celebration of the Death and Resurrection of Osiris.

We believe that the spiritual forces of this occasion, and the Mysteries divulged to him by the Hermetic priests of the god Thoth, were the inspiration for this ascension into godliness.

The Passion of Isis and Osiris was played out annually in Ancient Egypt and formed the cornerstone of the Egyptian belief system, a belief system which taught that you could die horribly and tragically and yet you could be revived and restored and in fact you could become a god.

Sacred players acted out the roles of Osiris, his murderous brother Set and his faithful consort Isis. It was through the magical spells contained in the fabled "Scroll of Thoth" that Isis brought Osiris back from the dead.




At Oxyrhynchus Antinous had seen just how potent the magical spells of Isis were.

The festival of Osiris celebrated at Hermopolis and observed by Hadrian and Antinous commemorated the rending of the body of Osiris and the searching of Isis for each of the parts.

We believe that something of a cathartic nature happened within the soul of Antinous at Hermopolis just before he plunged into the Nile on the opposite bank across from Hermopolis.

We will never know precisely what happened. Did Antinous get a glimpse at the fabled Scroll of Thoth? Did some Egyptian magician-priest teach him a bit about spellcasting? Did Antinous perhaps believe that he could use a spell to prolong Hadrian's life?

The Egyptians believed anyone who drowned in the Nile would become "a deified Osiris". Some Egyptian magical spells call for the magician to "deify a scarab beetle" -- which means to drown it in Nile water and thus make it sacred and magical.

We will never know for sure what happened as a result of the ceremonies on October 27th, the last day and the last sunset of the brief mortal life of Antinous. The sun would rise on October 28th and, although the mortal Antinous would die, there would never be another setting of the sun for Antinous the Gay God!

FLAMEN ANTONIUS SUBIA tells us:

Like Osiris, Antinous descended into the Nile, and arose to bring the blessing of eternal life to the world. The Religion of Antinous, like the body of Osiris was scattered over the face of the world, and we who worship him, are like Isis, gathering the fragments together again.

Hermopolis was the last city that Antinous ever saw, and the Passion of Osiris was the last religious ceremony in which he took part. Certainly it was here and at this time that an Awakening occurred, dark in its implications, causing Antinous to relinquish his life.

But it was of splendid power in that, from the death of the boy, a god emerged. We observe that in Hermopolis, the scattering of the body of Osiris was the moment when the sperm of the blessed one was planted in the immortal spirit of Antinous, Our God.


The Sacred Nights of Antinous begin tomorrow ....

Monday, October 26, 2026

HOW DID ANTINOUS DIE? AND WHY?
By Our Flamen Antinoalis Antonius Subia



I go over this question again and again,
I haven't stopped wondering... and quite honestly,
I still don't know what to think...about how Antinous died.
Any possibility is probable...even Human sacrifice.
The ancients alluded to the rumors...so anyone who repeats them
...is being a scholar.

Dio Cassius suggested (or rather claimed) that Hadrian
Had the body of Antinous cut open for the examination of his organs,
Not to find the cause of death, as in an autopsy
But to examine the organs...for divination.
These were the organs of a god to be.

Horrible, and macabre
but why wouldn't Hadrian have every inch and morsel
Of his beloved Antinous examined and studied,
...Treated like sacred jewels from the depths
Of the most beautiful corpse?

I think we are all in agreement that,
The Body of Antinous was very likely Mummified.
That it was not buried in the earth...like a Greek of a Christian,
Nor laid in the tomb, covered in oil and herbs like a Jew
Nor burned on the pyre...like a Roman,
But that Antinous was very likely given the burial rites
Of an Egyptian King...a fashion still popular
Among the rich Hellenistic- Roman Nobility.
We have all seen the fayoum funereal paintings.
If you could afford it...you would be given the very best version
Of an ancient Egyptian Royal burial,
Your Body would be preserved to the very best of Mummification
Possible at that time...not quite as well as the ancients, but basically well preserved.

Hadrian, I imagine, paid top Sesterses
To have the Body of Antinous treated with the greatest and most sacred respect
Due the highest of kings
The best of the best were brought to Antinoopolis to Mummify the body of Antinous.
It seems very likely to think that the Roman Augurs,
Who were always part of the court, would want to examine
The organs of Antinous, before they were preserved in salt and nitron,
And gain whatever spiritual significance they might reveal,
...like a sacrificial Animal.
Why wouldn't they want to know if there was anything to be known
From the lobes of his liver and spleen,
Ridiculous as it may sound to us now,
And scandalous as it might seem to a Roman...and especially to a Christian.
Why wouldn't they make their examination,
Before his beautiful organs were dried and placed in their eternal alabaster urns?
Hadrian would have wanted to know why.

Maybe the slander came from the fact that his organs were examined,
Like a sacrificial lamb, or a bull.
Many of the coins of Antinous have a bull or a ram on the reverse,
Perhaps because Antinous was the "Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world."
In slanderous minds...some would say
That he died..for no other reason than to be examined,
...as though Hadrian slit his neck.

Antinous threw himself into the Nile...he died,
But even Hadrian had no idea why,
Hadrian only said that Antinous fell,
...if we are going to be scholars,
The ancient suggest that he drowned to prolong Hadrian's life,
Or rather...if Hadrian represents the Empire,
Then Antinous died for the benefit of the Roman Empire.
Dio Cassius, in his effort to belittle Hadrian,
Made the death of Antinous out to be a sacrifice to Hadrian's vanity,
But avoided the relevance of Hadrian's life to the benefit of all Romans.
If Antinous gave his life to prolong the life of Hadrian,
He was actually giving his life...in human sacrifice,
To prolong the benefit that Hadrian had brought to mankind,
To the whole of the Roman Empire.
If it was suggested to Antinous that by the sacrifice
Of that which was most dear to Hadrian,
That Hadrian would continue to live beyond his natural years,
If Antinous Loved Hadrian...as I feel that he did,
And if Antinous believed in Hadrian...what he meant to the world,
What he had done for Rome...for all mankind,
And what he could do in the future,
If someone were to suggest that through his own death,
Antinous could benefit Hadrian and ensure that Hadrian would continue to reign,
Do you think that Antinous would hesitate?

Of course he would hesitate.
There was more involved than we know,
Something happened...there was some kind of separation of the heart.
Antinous would have found some other way to benefit Hadrian,
With his life...by living...unless there was no other way.
If Antinous gave his life as a human sacrifice,
It would have been a very extreme psychological despair
That led him to take his own life...what could that have been?

Knowing what I know about Love,
I would say that it was simple acts of cruelty
That led to the end of Antinous.
Hadrian must have treated Antinous in a cruel manner
leading up to that sacred night in October of 130.
Antinous must have felt worthless to Hadrian,
Ruler of the Known World,
Hadrian might have said something that pushed Antinous
Over the edge.

Antinous was only a boy of 18 or 19,
Full of emotional turmoil,
The slightest word from Hadrian
Might have set Antinous...full of teenage hormones,
into an unbalanced, irrational state,
in which he was capable of anything.

Their relationship had no equality,
Hadrian was ruler of the world,
Antinous was nobody...a pretty boy
With thousands of rivals, an Empress who probably didn't approve,
And a rival in Lucius Verus...Antinous was harassed
On all sides by everyone who had something to gain,
And then there was that person who suggested 
That if Antinous gave his life,
That the reign of Hadrian would continue.

Hadrian cried as woman because he knew the real reason why 
Antinous died...Hadrian knew...and he cried...because he knew.

There must have been a final moment between them,
A final goodbye....that left Hadrian full of regret,
Our Religion is founded on Hadrian's regret


I think Antinous drowned for his own personal reasons,
He fell into the Nile by accident,
Maybe he was drunk,
Maybe he was suicidal...drowning off a boat is
A hard way to kill your self on purpose,
But there are others who have slipped into the river
And drowned...who were considered gods.
Who knows...rivers have no answers.

In Antinous...I feel that he gave himself to the Nile
He gave himself to such an extent that he died,
Whether by accident.... drunk...or visionary,
Antinous died in the Nile...he drowned.

So why do we worship him?
because Antinous is the god of the gays
There is no other gay god except Antinous,
Find fault in H.I.M. if you wish,
But Antinous is great and strong....
For those who see and know HIM,
There is no such thing as weakness,
Nor strength.
~ANTONIUS SUBIA

Sunday, October 25, 2026

OPEN YOUR EYES TO WEIGHTLESSNESS
DURING THE SACRED NIGHTS OF ANTINOUS



THE Sacred Nights of Antinous are fast approaching: The dark nights between the death of Antinous (28 October) and his Triumph over Death (31 October). 

This is a magical Space/Time event when the veil between the worlds is lifted. (Painting by RYAN MARTIN.)

This magical event is known by many names: Halloween ... Samhain ... Día de los Muertos ... All Saints/Souls Day ... it is also when we change the clocks (in most countries) ... an hour forward in some places ... or an hour backwards in other places ... the time displayed on the clock is unimportant ... your location in the Time/Space continuum is unimportant.

This Shoegazer video by Washed Out, which is a favourite of Antonius Subia, best illustrates what happens to each of us during the Sacred Nights of Antinous.

We become "Weightless" ... as the Time/Space boundaries between Dreaming and Waking evaporate ... we see waking life as a dream ... we "dreamscape" our dreams to make them real ... we see the world through the eyes of Antinous ... we see Antinous in the eyes of all around us ... the Ancient Priests in Rome see through our eyes ... we see through the eyes of the Future Priests on distant planets ... we see through the eyes of Antinous ... for whom all dimensions are HERE and NOW.

You open your eyes and see through the eyes of all your incarnations ... past incarnations ... your present incarnation ... future incarnations ... all simultaneously ... bundling and harnessing all the spiritual power from all your incarnations (and all the difficult lessons) in an illuminating flash of insight ... A moment which is eternity.

You become weightless. You take the leap of faith ... HOMOTHEOSIS ... Gay-Man-Godliness-Becoming-the-Same ... the same leap of faith that Antinous took when he plunged into the Nile on 28 October 130 AD.

He did not take that leap of faith in order to die ... he took that leap of faith in order to fill his lungs with the Semen of the First God ... in order to transcend Time and Space ... so that all moments in Time are NOW ... all points in Space are HERE ... so that he can LIVE CONSCIOUSLY.

It is his gift to each of us. All he asks is that we open our eyes to it ...




Saturday, October 24, 2026

MARBLE SLAB AT HADRIAN'S VILLA
COMMEMORATES SACRED LIGHTNING STRIKE


Archaeologists excavating at Hadrian's Villa near Rome have unearthed a rare marble slab bearing an inscription that provides a new understanding of the religious rituals that took place in the ancient retreat built in the Second Century A.D. by Roman Emperor Hadrian. It reads FVLGVR SVBMANIVM ... the "lightning bolt of Summanus," god of nocturnal lightning ... indicating that the UNESCO World Heritage site was the spot of an ancient lightning strike.

The discovery was made during excavations conducted by the Department of Humanities (DISTUM) of the University of Urbino Carlo Bo, under a concession from the Italian Ministry of Culture and directed by professor Fabio Giorgio Cavallero.  

"In Roman belief, a place struck by lightning was immediately considered religiosus, having been consecrated by the deity itself," says Alberto Samonà, the director of the Istituto Villa Adriana and the Villa d'Este, which collaborated on the excavation. "The traces left by the lightning were ritually collected and buried, accompanied by appropriate rites and sacrifices."

Antinous was nearly struck by lightning. It's true! Not just a legend, but historical fact. It happened atop MOUNT CASIUS in Syria at the September Equinox in the year 129 AD. Hadrian, Antinous and the imperial entourage climbed the mountain to offer sacrifices to Jupiter/Zeus. At the top, a bolt of lightning struck the altar, killing the priest and the sacrificial animal. Was it an omen? Antinous died a year later!

Friday, October 23, 2026

THE SCORPION GODDESS SELKET
GUARDS THE TOMB OF ANTINOUS



23 October is the feast day of the Egyptian scorpion goddess Selket/Serqet ... on this day the Sun enters Scorpio. When Isis went off in search of the body of slain Osiris, she left her baby Horus in the protection of Selket ... because everyone knows scorpions are good mothers ... scorpions carry their babies on their backs. Selket is the guardian of Horus and ... by extension ... she is the guardian of Antinous.

23 de outubro é o dia da festa do escorpião deusa egípcia Selket / Serqet ... neste dia o Sol entra em Escorpião. Quando Isis saiu em busca do corpo de Osíris morto, ela deixou o bebê Horus na proteção de Selket ... porque todo mundo sabe escorpiões são boas mães ... escorpiões carregam seus bebês em suas costas. Selket é o guardião de Horus e ... por extensão ... ela é a guardiã dos Antinous.

23 de octubre es el día de fiesta de la diosa egipcia escorpión Selket / Serqet ... en este día el Sol entra en Escorpio. Cuando Isis fue en busca del cuerpo de Osiris muerto, ella dejó a su bebé Horus en la protección de Selket ... porque todo el mundo sabe que los escorpiones son buenas madres ... escorpiones llevan a sus bebés en sus espaldas. Selket es el guardián de Horus y por extensión ... ... ella es el guardián de Antinoo.

Thursday, October 22, 2026

SOME MODERN ANTINOUS WORSHIPERS
PURCHASE NEWSPAPER DEATH NOTICES



LATE October is the time of the Sacred Nights of Antinous ... culminating with the death and deification of Antinous.

In the modern religion of Antinous, we commemorate the Death of Antinous on 28 October ... but many scholars and Antinous adherents believe 22 October may have been the date.

Some faithful worshipers purchase obituary death notices in newspapers on the anniversary, such as the one above.

The death notice at the left was published in the Camden New Journal on 17 October 2013.

The exact date is uncertain. 

All we know for certain is that his death occurred in the final week of October during a visit to Egypt with Emperor Hadrian in the year 130 AD. 

Near the Egyptian village of Hir-wer, Antinous fell into the Nile and drowned. Antonius Subia says:

"Antinous fell into the Nile, beneath the swirling waves, but when his body was pulled from the water ... a God emerged. Antinous is our God, he has accomplished the salvation of all lovers of his beauty. His is our salvation. He is Antinous the Gay God. He is the last pagan God of Classical Rome."

Wednesday, October 21, 2026

SUNRAYS ILLUMINATE INNER SANCTUARY
OF ABU SIMBEL AT DAWN OCTOBER 22nd



FOR most of the year, the inner sanctum of the main temple at Abu Simbel is shrouded in darkness.

On two days, traditionally the anniversary of the birthday and coronation of pharaoh Ramses II, a shaft of sunlight pierces the gloom, illuminating statues of gods and the king in the temple's inner sanctum.

On February 22, a day celebrating the king's birthday and again on October 22, a day celebrating his coronation, sunlight illuminates seated statues of the sun gods Re-Horakhte and Amon-Re, as well as a statue of king Ramses II. The statues sit in the company of the Theban god of darkness, Ptah (who remains in the shadows all year).

The spectacle—which has endured more than 3,200 years of Egyptian history—draws thousands of tourists to Abu Simbel to watch this ancient tribute to a pharaoh whose name is still known up and down the Nile Valley for his military exploits and monumental building projects.

Ramses, who ruled Egypt for 66 years from 1270 to 1213 BC (about 50 years after the death of Tutankhamen, better known as King Tut) made a name for himself by battling the Hittites and the Syrians, Egypt's enemies to the north.

To celebrate his victories, Ramses erected monuments up and down the Nile with records of his achievements. He completed the hypostyle hall at Karnak (Thebes), and completed the funerary temple of his father, Seti I, at Luxor on the West Bank of the Nile.

The main temple at Abu Simbel, which Ramses ordered built near the border of Nubia and Upper Egypt, was dedicated to two sun gods, Amen-Re and Re-Horakhte. 

Standing 100 feet (33 meters) tall, the temple was carved into an already-standing sandstone mountain on the banks of the Nile.

Four colossal statues of Ramses, each 66 feet (22 meters) high, guard the entrance to the temple.

Rising to the pharaoh's knees are smaller statues of family members: his mother; favorite wife, Nefertari; and son, Prince Amonherkhepshef.

Inside the temple, three connected halls extend 185 feet (56 meters) into the mountain. 

Images of the king's life and many achievements adorn the walls. 

A second temple at Abu Simbel is dedicated to Nefartari, who appears to have been Ramses' favorite wife.

"Abu Simbel was one of, if not the largest, rock-cut temples in Egypt," says Bruce Williams of the Oriental Institute of Chicago, "The rock was sacred because the Egyptians believed the deity was living inside the mountain."

Rock-cut temples may have been especially significant in ancient Egypt because the bulge in the otherwise flat land may have signified the location where the gods emerged from the Earth, says Williams.

Tuesday, October 20, 2026

ANCIENT CROCODILE SKELETON FOUND
UNDER A TEMPLE AT ANTINOOPOLIS


OCTOBER 20th is the ancient Egyptian Festival of Sobek, the ancient Egyptian crocodile god. 

Sobek is fierce, frightening, nurturing, and virile ... and as such was much loved by the Egyptian pharaohs. 

Archaeologists have found a crocodile skeleton under a temple of Antinous at Antinoopolis (see photo below). 

The crocodile protects the temple in all eternity! 

Sobek is celebrated for his protective and nurturing nature. In ancient Egypt, crocodiles were often mummified with a baby crocodile in their mouth, or on their back. 

This aspect of crocodile behavior was unknown to Western science until late in the 20th century, but the ancient Egyptians knew it. That is why a crocodile was buried at a temple of Antinous ... to protect Antinous for all eternity! 

The crocodile skeleton is one of the mysteries surrounding an INTENTIONALLY BURIED STONE STRUCTURE at Antinoopolis where ot just one ... but three ... human skeletons interred in sand directly on top of the structure.

With the discovery of the first body in 2017, archaeologists reluctantly speculated about "human sacrifice" ... but now they believe humans were buried separately but along with sacrificial animals.

The team of archaeologists working at ANTINOOPOLIS in Egypt say the subterranean "stone structure," which they believe may be an underground mortuary temple, is covered by two meters of soil strewn with sacrificial pottery sherds, bones of livestock and a crocodile ... and the skeleton of at least three human beings.

None of the animals was mummified ... nor were the humans,
says James B. Heidel, president of the Antinoupolis Foundation.

Some of the animals ... livestock ... were ritually butchered as normal for a Roman-era sacrifice. But a crocodile was buried intact, without being mummified.

But the human bodies were interred intact, also without being mummified. One of the bodies was accompanied by pottery vessels and ushabti figurines ... small clay dolls representing spirits who tend the deceased in the afterlife. 
The experts are certain that the pottery vessels and the bodies date to the earliest days of the city which Hadrian founded at the site where Antinous died in the Nile.

None of the pottery is later than the 2nd or 3rd Century AD, the experts said ... meaning the sacrificial offerings were made at the time when the city was founded and under construction.

The archaeologists are also certain that the site is intact and has not been disturbed by looters over succeeding centuries.

They found bones of large livestock, which appear to have been butchered prior to burial. An intact crocodile skeleton is seen as proof that the site was used as a religious sacrificial offering venue ... since crocodiles were sacred to Ancient Egyptians and not a source of food.


But the human skeleton is a total mystery. In Roman times, human sacrifice was taboo, but the archaeologists say the human bones mixed in amongst the bones of sacrificial animals and pottery suggest a gruesome possibility.

"The human burial is sealed in the same clean sand layer as all the other offerings, and the not unreasonable, but somewhat uncomfortable, hypothesis must now be that at least one human was sacrificed and offered with the animals," says James B. Heidel, president of the Antinoupolis Foundation.

The pottery and bones are in soil which covers the mystery-shrouded "intentionally buried stone structure" which Heidel's team found in January 2017 in the heart of the city founded by Hadrian at the spot where Antinous died in the Nile.

Using ground-penetrating radar, the experts discovered the rectangular stone structure ... 12 by 22 meters in size ... which consists of three successive chambers. 

The archaeologists suggest it could be an OSIREION ... symbolic Tomb of Osiris ... raising hopes that this could be the Lost Tomb of Antinous.

The structure was detected with ground-penetrating radar.

It is located near the waterfront peristyle discovered last season.

It is within what possibly was the Great Temple of Antinous and is a rectangular chamber which is subdivided into three sub-chambers ... apparently an antechamber, a middle chamber and an inner sanctum.

Monday, October 19, 2026

SAINT DIVINE
HARRIS GLENN MILSTEAD


ON October 19th we honor Saint Divine (October 19, 1945 — March 7, 1988), born Harris Glenn Milstead. 

Divine was an openly gay American actor, singer and drag queen.

Described by People magazine as the "Drag Queen of the Century," Divine often performed female roles in both cinema and theater and also appeared in women's wear in musical performances.

Even so, he considered himself to be a character actor and performed male roles in a number of his later films.

He was most often associated with independent filmmaker John Waters and starred in ten of Waters's films, usually in a leading role.

Concurrent with his acting career, he also had a successful career as  a disco singer during the 1980s, at one point being described as "the  most successful and in-demand disco performer in the world."

Divine, the seventh-of-a-ton transvestite star of Mr. Waters's early movies, helped set a new standard for drag that endured long after Divine's death of heart failure in 1988, Mr. Waters said.

"When we started in those days, drag queens were square," Mr. Waters explained. "They hated Divine: they wanted to be Bess Myerson. And Divine would show up in a see-through miniskirt with a chainsaw instead of a pocketbook."

The Divine look, which stylist Van Smith first created in 1972 for Pink Flamingos, had three components. First was the hair, shaved back to the crown to allow more room for eye makeup.

Second was the makeup, acres of eye shadow topped by McDonald's-arch eyebrows; lashes so long they preceded the wearer; and a huge scarlet mouth. Third were the clothes: shimmering, skintight numbers that gave Divine a larger-than-life female sensuality.

The net effect, as Mr. Smith ordained it, was a cross between Jayne Mansfield and Clarabell the Clown.

"If you look at anything that Divine wore, you sure couldn't find that off the rack," Mr. Waters said.

All of Divine's costumes were constructed by a Baltimore woman who made outfits for strippers. Subtle they were not. There was the red fishtail dress from Pink Flamingos, in which Divine looks equal parts mermaid, Valkyrie and firetruck. And there was the sheer wedding gown she wears in Female Trouble (1974), underwear not included.

Divine once famously said that if anybody was shocked by a 300-pound drag queen in a slinky cocktail dress "then maybe they need to be shocked." He himself would describe his stage performances as "just good, dirty fun, and if you find it offensive, honey, don't join in."

As a part of his performance, he would constantly swear at the audience, often using his signature line of "fuck you very much", and at times would get audience members to come onstage, where he would fondle their buttocks, groins and breasts.

He became increasingly known for outlandish stunts onstage, each time trying to outdo what he had done before. At one performance, held in the Hippodrome in London, that coincided with American Independence Day, Divine rose up from the floor on a hydraulic lift, draped in the American flag, and declared that "I'm here representing Freedom, Liberty, Family Values and the fucking American Way of Life."

When he performed at London Gay Pride parade, he sang on the roof of a hired pleasure boat that floated down the Thames passed Jubilee Gardens, whilst at a performance he gave at the Hippodrome in the last year of his life, he appeared onstage riding an infant elephant, known as Bully the Elephant, who had been hired for the occasion.

Divine and his stage act proved particularly popular amongst gay audiences, and he appeared at some of the world's biggest gay clubs, such as Heaven in London. According to Divine's manager, Bernard Jay, this was "not because Divine happened to be a gay person himself... but because it was the gay community that openly and proudly identified with the determination of the female character Divine."

He was also described as "one of the few truly radical and essential artists of the century ... who was an audacious symbol of man's quest for liberty and freedom."

On the evening of March 7, 1988, a week after his starring role in "Hairspray" was released, Divine was staying at the Regency Hotel in Los Angeles. The next day, he auditioned for a part in the Fox network's television series "Married ... With Children". After dining with friends and returning to the hotel, he died in his sleep of an enlarged heart at age 42.