MY dear Companions of Antinous: Over the next several days I will be posting a new epistle on Antinous. My last epistle the subject was on the Heart of Antinous. In this series we delve a little deeper into that part of Antinous' heart which is Antinous Spiritual Seeker.
When we look at both Hadrian and Antinous we see they both were “Seekers” A seeker is someone who always wants to know more, to the point where their mind becomes restless. Being a seeker isn’t just about observing and gaining knowledge and it is certainly that, but it’s about exploring the world both outer and inner. The idea of being a seeker is one which has been studied by many a philosopher for years which have given many different interpretations. Someone has come up with eight qualities of a seeker. Looking at these eight qualities with Antinous in mind hopefully will give us an insight into him and bring us closer to him. Ave Antinous
1. Seeking to know yourself:
All during this long journey with Hadrian, Antinous showed a thirst for knowing himself. If truth be known for years Antinous sought to know himself which may have started at a young age possibly during his schooling in philosophy. The opportunities that being with Hadrian presented which were many lead Antinous to be introduced into mysteries and participate in discussions and practices that would bring Antinous to know and define himself.
Always searching for the truth. When finding truth, it can be a bitter journey at times. Even though bitter one should choose truth over other things, the reason is that truth liberates. Ma’at, also spelled Mayet, in ancient Egyptian religion, the personification of truth, justice, and the cosmic order. The daughter of the sun god Re, she was associated with Thoth, god of wisdom. In June we celebrate the Egyptian festival of Ma’at and this is when she unites as one with all the deities of the heavens including Antinous as the final god of Egypt. Ma'at is often thought of as representing justice, but her true function is balance. If something has been pushed off kilter, then Ma'at embodies the power that restores equilibrium. Antinous at time would have felt off balance I am sure many times. He may have prayed to Ma’at to help him restore balance in his life and that of his love, Hadrian.